Most of us spend our days in the past or in the future. Very few of us live in the present moment.
When you are faced with a life threatening or life altering event, your life becomes instantly compressed. There is no past. There is no future. There is only this moment. There is only now.
I am just a regular person like you, trying to navigate my way through this thing called life.
I have experienced much loss in my life, sometimes I think more than one person can bear. Starting with the loss of my father when I was sixteen, to the loss of my ability to have children, the collapse of my marriage, to the loss of not one, but three of my siblings by the time I turned 50.
I understand your feelings of loss. I have compassion for your roller coaster of emotions you must be feeling right now. The denial, the anger, the guilt, the blame, and the bone gnawing grief that can eat at your soul.
From the age of five, I witnessed my father struggle with multiple sclerosis, and the devastating impact it had on him and our family. Only to repeat the process when I was an adult. My soul ached as I stood witness to my sister’s struggle with the very same disease.
I have hurt and shed rivers of tears as cancer touched the lives of those I know and love. Only to experience my own journey with cancer, not once, but twice. To witness the impact the disease has had on my life, and on the lives of those that love me.
In January 2006, I was diagnosed with cervical cancer. It was a difficult journey, with many complications. I survived but did not thrive. Besides living with health challenges from my cancer treatment, my marriage collapsed. And along with that went many of my hopes and dreams.
In April 2014, I was diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer.
Believe me when I say, I understand how you feel. I have compassion for your journey through illness, or the journey of your loved one. The fear, the terror, the denial, the anger, the desperation, the bargaining, the hopelessness.
From the beginning of my healing journey through this life threatening illness, I have received and continue to receive many communications from Spirit.
I initially proceeded with conventional medicine, having the recommended surgery and receiving chemotherapy. Spirit has quite clearly told me, as well as shown me, that it is not my time to die. Finally, one day, I trusted that my intuition and the messages I was receiving from Spirit are real.
I chose a new path. I turned to natural medicine.
Spirit has spoken to me about healing and what it means to be alive. I have been reminded, on numerous occasions (smile!), to document my journey, and to share my experiences and the communications I have received, with you. Being a private and introverted person, you can imagine that this has not and will not be an easy task for me!
Throughout this blog site, as I share my experiences with you, please do not feel bound by my experiences or interpretations. If you receive a different intuitive direction from Spirit, trust that that response is correct for you.
Wherever you are at in your life, whether you are ill, struggling, grieving, disillusioned, or perhaps you are just feeling alone and confused, it is my prayer that, in sharing my journey, you find some comfort, direction, and hope. And that you open yourself up to guidance from Spirit for your healing, as I strive to do every day that I am here on this beautiful planet.
Please know that there is Divine purpose to all that is seen and unseen in our lives.
Thank you. GOD bless.